My Testimony part II
Posted by Courtney Franz on Friday, August 22, 2014
Under: G-SUS
My depression was almost gone and my guy bestfriend and I had gotten back to being friends. We began to like each other and we were flirting a lot and then he kissed me. We started dating the next day and it was an amazing relationship, and I loved him. He didn't go to church except for Christmas and Easter, but I was determined to change him. Then after our first month of dating he started to get touchy with me in places he shouldn't have. I told him no multiple times but eventually decided it was ok because I loved him and he would marry me one day. A couple months later I gave away my most beautiful gift. My virginity.
A week later I went to Church camp (he did not go). Church camp was surreal and I encountered God in a way I had never before. I began to feel guilty and repented for my sin and asked for forgiveness. I only told one girl in my cabin about what had happened and she said a similar thing happened to her and that God forgave her and he forgives me. That was only the first night, after that I knew I was going for God. The second night God gave me a vision of me preaching in front of a brand new church I had helped build. I can describe word for word what this church looks like to this day in fact here is picture below.
After getting this vision I knew God wanted me to use myself to proclaim his word and tell people about him. This was outstanding. The last night at camp was the best though, God had used me in an amazing way. At camp there was a young man who I didn't like that much because I thought he was pretty selfish. That night during worship though God told me to pray for him. I refused and kept singing the songs on the screen and before I knew it that kid was standing right next to me. So I moved to the other side of the room, escaping what God had told me to do. One of the pastor's then got up on stage to ask people to worship to themselves for awhile and I thought HA God now I can't pray for him. I began praying when all of a sudden I felt like someone was pulling me to my right and I started swaying that direction towards the young man, and I sat down in frustration crying because I did not want to pray for him. As I was crying a friend of mine came up to me and said you need to go and then left. Still being the stubborn person I was I lay there balling my eyes out and I felt hands on my head. The young man I had been avoiding the entire time came up to me and told me in my ear that I needed to pray for whoever it was God wanted me too. I then turned around and said, God wants me to pray for you. He said that would be nice, so as I layed my hands on him to start praying he collapsed to the ground in tears and began to hold onto me. I was confused, this was the toughest, cockiest guy at camp and he was crying. I kept praying though and later found out that was the Holy Spirit.
Even though I had this amazing encounter at camp I still came home and continued in my sin, not because it made me feel good, but because I didn't want my boyfriend to leave me. If he left me I would have no one to marry because I gave away my precious gift.
Freshman year started and I made new friends, but I was ALWAYS with my boyfriend kissing him or holding his hand. We were attached at the hip. With Freshmen year came new things but I also had a boyfriend who was changing into something not so good.
He began to tell me that I was ugly if I didn't wear makeup, and that I shouldn't wear sweatpants in public ever because I looked like a hobo. He also started to control what I wore, what I posted on Facebook, who I talked to, and wouldn't let me go out with my friends often because he didn't like them and didn't want me becoming a B**** like them. I was falling apart and in December he broke up with me for a night and I fell apart, but we soon got back together.
In January I went to a Christian Conference (He was not there) and not only did I encounter God but I met a young man. At the conference I was having a blast learning more about my savior and I went to a Holy Spirit class and as I was walking back to the main conference area a young man came up to me. He said "Hi I'm Kolten, you look very beautiful today! I live in Yakima. Whats your name?" I told him my name and that I too lived in Yakima and went to West My depression was almost gone and my guy bestfriend and I had gotten back to being friends. We began to like each other and we were flirting a lot and then he kissed me. We started dating the next day and it was an amazing relationship, and I loved him. He didn't go to church except for Christmas and Easter, but I was determined to change him. Then after our first month of dating he started to get touchy with me in places he shouldn't have. I told him no multiple times but eventually decided it was ok because I loved him and he would marry me one day. A couple months later I gave away my most beautiful gift. My virginity.
A week later I went to Church camp (he did not go). Church camp was surreal and I encountered God in a way I had never before. I began to feel guilty and repented for my sin and asked for forgiveness. I only told one girl in my cabin about what had happened and she said a similar thing happened to her and that God forgave her and he forgives me. That was only the first night, after that I knew I was going for God. The second night God gave me a vision of me preaching in front of a brand new church I had helped build. I can describe word for word what this church looks like to this day in fact here is picture below.
After getting this vision I knew God wanted me to use myself to proclaim his word and tell people about him. This was outstanding. The last night at camp was the best though, God had used me in an amazing way. At camp there was a young man who I didn't like that much because I thought he was pretty selfish. That night during worship though God told me to pray for him. I refused and kept singing the songs on the screen and before I knew it that kid was standing right next to me. So I moved to the other side of the room, escaping what God had told me to do. One of the pastor's then got up on stage to ask people to worship to themselves for awhile and I thought HA God now I can't pray for him. I began praying when all of a sudden I felt like someone was pulling me to my right and I started swaying that direction towards the young man, and I sat down in frustration crying because I did not want to pray for him. As I was crying a friend of mine came up to me and said you need to go and then left. Still being the stubborn person I was I lay there balling my eyes out and I felt hands on my head. The young man I had been avoiding the entire time came up to me and told me in my ear that I needed to pray for whoever it was God wanted me too. I then turned around and said, God wants me to pray for you. He said that would be nice, so as I layed my hands on him to start praying he collapsed to the ground in tears and began to hold onto me. I was confused, this was the toughest, cockiest guy at camp and he was crying. I kept praying though and later found out that was the Holy Spirit.
Even though I had this amazing encounter at camp I still came home and continued in my sin, not because it made me feel good, but because I didn't want my boyfriend to leave me. If he left me I would have no one to marry because I gave away my precious gift.
Freshman year started and I made new friends, but I was ALWAYS with my boyfriend kissing him or holding his hand. We were attached at the hip. With Freshmen year came new things but I also had a boyfriend who was changing into something not so good.
He began to tell me that I was ugly if I didn't wear makeup, and that I shouldn't wear sweatpants in public ever because I looked like a hobo. He also started to control what I wore, what I posted on Facebook, who I talked to, and wouldn't let me go out with my friends often because he didn't like them and didn't want me becoming a B**** like them. I was falling apart and in December he broke up with me for a night and I fell apart, but we soon got back together.
In January I went to a Christian Conference (He was not there) and not only did I encounter God but I met a young man. At the conference I had a blast learning more about God and the second day I was coming back from a class about the Holy Spirit and a young man came up to me. He said "Hi I'm Kolten, you look very beautiful today! I'm from Yakima, where are you from?" I told him my name and that I lived in Yakima too and went to this church. He looked at me with shock and then preceeded to say he went to the same church! Wait I knew this guy, well we had never met but I heard plenty of stories about him and how my friend used to have a crush on him. I told him this and we began talking all the way back to the conference area. At the end he asked about my necklace and said it was pretty. I told him I had gotten it from my boyfriend. He looked sullen after I said that and said "Oh, you have a boyfriend." We still talked though, and even sat across from each other at lunch.
The last day of the conference I had a vision of Kolten and I and another young man holding hands on top of a mountain with a city below and God saying, you have brought all these people to me through your love. It was beautiful, I didn't tell Kolten though, not until months later.
After that I went to youthgroup every Tuesday and my boyfriend and I were falling apart. Every Tuesday Kolten would talk to me about my boyfriend and one night I spilled it all out. I told him how my boyfriend was verbally absusive and how I didn't want to date him anymore. He encouraged me to do what God had for me. So my boyfriend and I broke up and got back together multiple times but we were always still together.
Freshman year was almost over and I went to a church event with one of my new friends and I introduced her to Kolten. We worshiped and when we got done my friend said "You like Kolten." I nodded my head no, and then she looked at me and I said "Oh God, I do like him." After saying this she giggled and just my luck Kolten approached. He said I looked beautiful and that he had to go, I gave him a high five, blushed and ran to the bathroom.
The day after school had ended and I had two of my bestfriends spend the night. We were in my pool when they told me that I needed to break up with my boyfriend and that he was no good for me. I agreed. So the next day I called him up and broke up with him.
Afterwards, I felt free. It was finally over. I was set free. That Sunday I told Kolten about what had happened and that it was official. He gave me a high five and guess what? That day he got his first cell phone. I wrote down my number on a sticky note hoping he might text me. I never got a text that day and then around 8 oclock he texted me and we texted for hours about how much we love Jesus. It was beautiful.
Months later we talked about how we liked each other but we didn't want to date till later. This time was healing time for me. I went through a lot of nights crying, thinking I will never have another man I can marry, let alone Kolten, because i was not pure and no one wanted to marry a girl without her virginity.
Early September I told Kolten about my past and my biggest secret, and you know what he told me? That he still likes me and wants to be bestfriends and that God forgives me. That day he also gave me our first hug. It was beautiful. It still took about a year to overcome the idea that I was forgiven, but I now know I am.
God forgave me. He can forgive you too, no matter what you have done. He loves you and wants to be there for you. If you need help finding him, find me or facebook me and I will pray with you.
Now your probably wondering what else happened, well Kolten and I were bestfriends for a year and a half and we started dating and now we have been dating for 2 years. I hope to marry him one day, but only God knows that!
So as you can see, I'm a different girl and always will be. God saved me, literally and figuratively. Without him I wouldn't be here today and I wouldn't be the happy loving girl I am. I hope to grow more in my faith, lately I've been slacking and need to get better so I am going to be posting my devotions on here as much as I can!:)
Thanks for reading and I hope this helped you out a bit! Here is a verse I want to leave you with:
Isaiah 58:9 "Then you will call, and the LORD will answer; you will cry for help, and he will say: Here am I."
A week later I went to Church camp (he did not go). Church camp was surreal and I encountered God in a way I had never before. I began to feel guilty and repented for my sin and asked for forgiveness. I only told one girl in my cabin about what had happened and she said a similar thing happened to her and that God forgave her and he forgives me. That was only the first night, after that I knew I was going for God. The second night God gave me a vision of me preaching in front of a brand new church I had helped build. I can describe word for word what this church looks like to this day in fact here is picture below.
After getting this vision I knew God wanted me to use myself to proclaim his word and tell people about him. This was outstanding. The last night at camp was the best though, God had used me in an amazing way. At camp there was a young man who I didn't like that much because I thought he was pretty selfish. That night during worship though God told me to pray for him. I refused and kept singing the songs on the screen and before I knew it that kid was standing right next to me. So I moved to the other side of the room, escaping what God had told me to do. One of the pastor's then got up on stage to ask people to worship to themselves for awhile and I thought HA God now I can't pray for him. I began praying when all of a sudden I felt like someone was pulling me to my right and I started swaying that direction towards the young man, and I sat down in frustration crying because I did not want to pray for him. As I was crying a friend of mine came up to me and said you need to go and then left. Still being the stubborn person I was I lay there balling my eyes out and I felt hands on my head. The young man I had been avoiding the entire time came up to me and told me in my ear that I needed to pray for whoever it was God wanted me too. I then turned around and said, God wants me to pray for you. He said that would be nice, so as I layed my hands on him to start praying he collapsed to the ground in tears and began to hold onto me. I was confused, this was the toughest, cockiest guy at camp and he was crying. I kept praying though and later found out that was the Holy Spirit.
Even though I had this amazing encounter at camp I still came home and continued in my sin, not because it made me feel good, but because I didn't want my boyfriend to leave me. If he left me I would have no one to marry because I gave away my precious gift.
Freshman year started and I made new friends, but I was ALWAYS with my boyfriend kissing him or holding his hand. We were attached at the hip. With Freshmen year came new things but I also had a boyfriend who was changing into something not so good.
He began to tell me that I was ugly if I didn't wear makeup, and that I shouldn't wear sweatpants in public ever because I looked like a hobo. He also started to control what I wore, what I posted on Facebook, who I talked to, and wouldn't let me go out with my friends often because he didn't like them and didn't want me becoming a B**** like them. I was falling apart and in December he broke up with me for a night and I fell apart, but we soon got back together.
In January I went to a Christian Conference (He was not there) and not only did I encounter God but I met a young man. At the conference I was having a blast learning more about my savior and I went to a Holy Spirit class and as I was walking back to the main conference area a young man came up to me. He said "Hi I'm Kolten, you look very beautiful today! I live in Yakima. Whats your name?" I told him my name and that I too lived in Yakima and went to West My depression was almost gone and my guy bestfriend and I had gotten back to being friends. We began to like each other and we were flirting a lot and then he kissed me. We started dating the next day and it was an amazing relationship, and I loved him. He didn't go to church except for Christmas and Easter, but I was determined to change him. Then after our first month of dating he started to get touchy with me in places he shouldn't have. I told him no multiple times but eventually decided it was ok because I loved him and he would marry me one day. A couple months later I gave away my most beautiful gift. My virginity.
A week later I went to Church camp (he did not go). Church camp was surreal and I encountered God in a way I had never before. I began to feel guilty and repented for my sin and asked for forgiveness. I only told one girl in my cabin about what had happened and she said a similar thing happened to her and that God forgave her and he forgives me. That was only the first night, after that I knew I was going for God. The second night God gave me a vision of me preaching in front of a brand new church I had helped build. I can describe word for word what this church looks like to this day in fact here is picture below.
After getting this vision I knew God wanted me to use myself to proclaim his word and tell people about him. This was outstanding. The last night at camp was the best though, God had used me in an amazing way. At camp there was a young man who I didn't like that much because I thought he was pretty selfish. That night during worship though God told me to pray for him. I refused and kept singing the songs on the screen and before I knew it that kid was standing right next to me. So I moved to the other side of the room, escaping what God had told me to do. One of the pastor's then got up on stage to ask people to worship to themselves for awhile and I thought HA God now I can't pray for him. I began praying when all of a sudden I felt like someone was pulling me to my right and I started swaying that direction towards the young man, and I sat down in frustration crying because I did not want to pray for him. As I was crying a friend of mine came up to me and said you need to go and then left. Still being the stubborn person I was I lay there balling my eyes out and I felt hands on my head. The young man I had been avoiding the entire time came up to me and told me in my ear that I needed to pray for whoever it was God wanted me too. I then turned around and said, God wants me to pray for you. He said that would be nice, so as I layed my hands on him to start praying he collapsed to the ground in tears and began to hold onto me. I was confused, this was the toughest, cockiest guy at camp and he was crying. I kept praying though and later found out that was the Holy Spirit.
Even though I had this amazing encounter at camp I still came home and continued in my sin, not because it made me feel good, but because I didn't want my boyfriend to leave me. If he left me I would have no one to marry because I gave away my precious gift.
Freshman year started and I made new friends, but I was ALWAYS with my boyfriend kissing him or holding his hand. We were attached at the hip. With Freshmen year came new things but I also had a boyfriend who was changing into something not so good.
He began to tell me that I was ugly if I didn't wear makeup, and that I shouldn't wear sweatpants in public ever because I looked like a hobo. He also started to control what I wore, what I posted on Facebook, who I talked to, and wouldn't let me go out with my friends often because he didn't like them and didn't want me becoming a B**** like them. I was falling apart and in December he broke up with me for a night and I fell apart, but we soon got back together.
In January I went to a Christian Conference (He was not there) and not only did I encounter God but I met a young man. At the conference I had a blast learning more about God and the second day I was coming back from a class about the Holy Spirit and a young man came up to me. He said "Hi I'm Kolten, you look very beautiful today! I'm from Yakima, where are you from?" I told him my name and that I lived in Yakima too and went to this church. He looked at me with shock and then preceeded to say he went to the same church! Wait I knew this guy, well we had never met but I heard plenty of stories about him and how my friend used to have a crush on him. I told him this and we began talking all the way back to the conference area. At the end he asked about my necklace and said it was pretty. I told him I had gotten it from my boyfriend. He looked sullen after I said that and said "Oh, you have a boyfriend." We still talked though, and even sat across from each other at lunch.
The last day of the conference I had a vision of Kolten and I and another young man holding hands on top of a mountain with a city below and God saying, you have brought all these people to me through your love. It was beautiful, I didn't tell Kolten though, not until months later.
After that I went to youthgroup every Tuesday and my boyfriend and I were falling apart. Every Tuesday Kolten would talk to me about my boyfriend and one night I spilled it all out. I told him how my boyfriend was verbally absusive and how I didn't want to date him anymore. He encouraged me to do what God had for me. So my boyfriend and I broke up and got back together multiple times but we were always still together.
Freshman year was almost over and I went to a church event with one of my new friends and I introduced her to Kolten. We worshiped and when we got done my friend said "You like Kolten." I nodded my head no, and then she looked at me and I said "Oh God, I do like him." After saying this she giggled and just my luck Kolten approached. He said I looked beautiful and that he had to go, I gave him a high five, blushed and ran to the bathroom.
The day after school had ended and I had two of my bestfriends spend the night. We were in my pool when they told me that I needed to break up with my boyfriend and that he was no good for me. I agreed. So the next day I called him up and broke up with him.
Afterwards, I felt free. It was finally over. I was set free. That Sunday I told Kolten about what had happened and that it was official. He gave me a high five and guess what? That day he got his first cell phone. I wrote down my number on a sticky note hoping he might text me. I never got a text that day and then around 8 oclock he texted me and we texted for hours about how much we love Jesus. It was beautiful.
Months later we talked about how we liked each other but we didn't want to date till later. This time was healing time for me. I went through a lot of nights crying, thinking I will never have another man I can marry, let alone Kolten, because i was not pure and no one wanted to marry a girl without her virginity.
Early September I told Kolten about my past and my biggest secret, and you know what he told me? That he still likes me and wants to be bestfriends and that God forgives me. That day he also gave me our first hug. It was beautiful. It still took about a year to overcome the idea that I was forgiven, but I now know I am.
God forgave me. He can forgive you too, no matter what you have done. He loves you and wants to be there for you. If you need help finding him, find me or facebook me and I will pray with you.
Now your probably wondering what else happened, well Kolten and I were bestfriends for a year and a half and we started dating and now we have been dating for 2 years. I hope to marry him one day, but only God knows that!
So as you can see, I'm a different girl and always will be. God saved me, literally and figuratively. Without him I wouldn't be here today and I wouldn't be the happy loving girl I am. I hope to grow more in my faith, lately I've been slacking and need to get better so I am going to be posting my devotions on here as much as I can!:)
Thanks for reading and I hope this helped you out a bit! Here is a verse I want to leave you with:
Isaiah 58:9 "Then you will call, and the LORD will answer; you will cry for help, and he will say: Here am I."
In : G-SUS
Tags: jesus testimoney god holyspirit
I am currently a Freshman in College and hope to one day be an Elementary Teacher.I love the arts and I am in L O V E with Jesus Christ. I attend a foursquare non-denominational church and love it there. I am dating a most wonderful man named Kolten Manz. Yes, we're Franz and Manz. I love blue sherbert from Baskin Robbins and you will almost always see me with a Coca-Cola in hand. I'm pretty simple, and still discovering who I am. You're welcome to join my most awesome adventure!
